Six years ago at an event called Acquire the Fire, I stood up out of my chair and timidly yelled out, "I want the Cross". It was almost like I said it as a question.
Did I mean it? Yes.
Did I surrender? No.
Saying that I have made a mistake has never been a difficult thing for me to do. This is different though. I am not writing this to say that I am right or wrong.
I am, however, simply...writing...this.
For quite some time it was hard for me to grasp this new motion of surrendering to God. I thought I already had! But to my surprise, to surrender to God means so much more than going to church on Sundays, praying at the dinner table, tithing, and doing good deeds. This is a life changing and life longing surrender!
I am a girl who loves "things". I love having records, pictures, letters, documents, albums, you name it. White Flag will not only add to my expressive collection for my personal satisfaction, but will be something that I can share with people endlessly. God has smacked me in the face this year and said, "Wake up Hannah! It is time you start giving instead of taking. Surrender!" Okay, not literally. But this is how I feel, and I can't help it. I am at the point of no return with God. He has changed me inside and out. That's the thing with surrendering, there is no turning back.
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